An Apology

But this isn't pinky. It's me. Hello HyruleField. If I can have a moment, I owe you all an explination. I had no right to leave without word and you deserve better. By now, you probley relize I'm not coming back. It is true. But I've checked up time and time agian, and you guys seem to be fine without me, so I'm not worried about that anymore.

When I left, I wanted nothing to do with the site or anyone anymore. Nova said a few things that made me go off the handel. "If he was saying it, it must be what others think right?" Then some stuff went down between me and Linkzeldafan4 and I almost attempted suicide. My cowardness saved my life. A few days later, I learned that all this could have been avoided if Nova hadn't over-exaggerated his rant and his talks to Lzf. Feeding him misinformation.

We have gotten past it thought, but they both know I don't trust them the same anymore.

Trust. It's a hard thing to gain back once you lose it. Which is why I'm here. After many weeks, I've come to relize the blame and fault is my own. I'm 20, and I act less then most of your alls age. I am not as mature as I thought I was, for if I had been, all this could have been handeled less drasticlly. I was going to wait until the move to say anything. Maybe having to work in the real world for money will snap the brat out of me. Make me grow up or something, cause I need it.

The fault, is my own. But here, I speak. I am sorry that you all had to constantly deal with my personal problems and immaturity. I realize that now when back then I put alot of blame on the two admins. I personally apologize to you too. And I greatly apologize to the site. When I stop being a bratty girl and act like a decent woman, I planned on returning to atelast the chatbox, if people are willing to still have me. If not, I understand. Alot of the major drama, I have caused in my selfishness and this time I'm not crawling back because you all deserve better.

I'm glad to get this off my chest, so I can start moving forward and hope that you guys will continue too. Take care of eachother guys, and the site.

is that MS?

...I can't even begin to explain my feelings on this whole thing. I'm just really disappointed with how things have been. You know what? Screw it, I'm gonna go eat an entire bucket of chicken by myself. He'll understand me, won't you mr chicken bucket?

(I know, bad time for a joke. That's just how I deal with stuff like this. I laugh my way through it.)

I'm just gonna say one thing, and that's about the misinformation.

Deku and I talked about it and everything we came upon and explained seemed logically correct, but I didn't interpret it in every possible way, and that fed full to the fire.

That is all.

I'm patiently awaiting your return, even if it's only back to the chatbox.

Menrow, I mean this with about as much sincerity like an idiot like myself can put into a piece of text. I think all of us really miss you, and after you left, the site pretty much died, with there being about 5 posts a day, most of them in the Off Topic.
Anyway, I'm glad you feel better and all. We all miss you, and I can't wait til you come back to the chatbox.

As T-kun was saying, this place IS pretty much dead without you here. Even the chat is dead 80% of the time! Everybody misses the hell out of you, MS, especially me and Deku. We could work something out, couldn't we?

Thank you..everyone. If I'm welcomed back. I come bearing a new sense of maturity, understanding and some spelling actually. T-Kun and 64. If you will have me, I would really like to rejoin your rps. I also wanna apologize for runing the doodle topic for everyone :<

But, I'm really glad to be back.

OH MY GOSH YES! You realize that the reason that the RP's are stopped is because you were gone right? I'd REALLY like to keep my RP going. And I'm sure 64 wants to start GS back up as well.

MS!!!! *spazhugs*